bandages are whac.

okay, it's not over just like that

obviously. but i just want the

world to know that bandages are

whac.

i have come to this brave discovery,

upon restless nights inflicted with heavy

chest pain, clenched teeth...eyes numb from the floods.

bandages can't cover up the burns, even long after this ever stops (IF it ever stops!).

my burns are too severe, too extreme, i need grafts, donors, intense therapy. Despite my understanding of why im where i am right now, as per last post, I still can't stop the feeling. you know what i'm saying? anybody out there? it's like the mental frustration has somehow leaked out of your psyche into your bloodstream and mutated into cells that just attacked your insides. It's what's keeping me from running back to the beginning, running back to where I KNOW im safe. The problem is, is that its gonna take a long time, and where does one get the stamina to withhold such pain?!

take home: question yourself till you die. busy yourself till you fall in a concussion. burn out till the dawn breaks. those of you in the fire, burn with me. those of you who find my posts sad and feel the need to throw a bucket of fake compassion so you look good--don't. real love, real convictions lie in REAL actions. the energy never dies. do me a favor, have a better week than me. just don't forget what you want to forget. or something like that.