owned.

stop being ordinary. do something different from what everyone else is doing.

bought my first pair of toms shoes the other day. super excited to show 'em off, only because its so incredibly different. and i bleed helping kids through my bones. check 'em out at http://www.tomsshoes.com. also i recommend making your homepage: http://www.goodsearch.com. No i'm not in a sudden charity high, heck I joined PA school in hopes of getting help to the suffering asap. That's why med school was out of the picture. too long of a wait to do something for someone else.

observing what is untold:

it's in the most confusing times you realize how cold your insides have become. being immune to adversity has, as the title so brilliantly proclaims, owned you.

you find yourself questioning and developing your thoughts into redundant cycles of brutal doubt, self-destruction-- forcing yourself to accept that you're destined for nothing but what is in front of you.

"Futures & chicken wings without ketchup and hot sauce, are just a mere potion for disaster", is what you mind answers to your heart when it is in utter fear and disgust.

and its true. the past tends to be something that encompasses and shatter all your hopes and dreams and plans and imagination. your mind knows nothing else in times of sudden adversity, when trauma or mama drama lingers as its only inhabitant of your sorry psyche.

and this is where it escalades into a hot, crazy mess: the pain burns. it burns so much that the ache owns you. it owns you to the point that you are utterly helpless to its firm hand of authority. you whine like a dog out in the cold, your sheets become red hot from the tossing and turning. you scream inside, pumping the vasculature to its demise. see the pain that really owns you isn't really what you think that owns you. it's your surroundings. you look around and micro-analyze every single thing, thinking its the only way you'll make sense of everything.

so the intervention begins. the point of writing this up for the world to see--while i should be studying cardiology is something that im trying to get people to understand.

God. i know He's so over-talked about, over-played, over-whatever suits your word choice.

It's so easy to believe in everything else but Him because well, why believe in something unseen? by believing in something real and concrete and physical you are able to conquer life's many trials. SURVEY SAYS: DE-NIED. the happy people are necessarily the happiest of happys.

ACCEPT THE UNSEEN AS A CRESCENDO.

the best thing about believing in the unseen is finding out that it is NOT something that is just ask and take. it is about working hard spiritually to allow rebirth and regrowth to exist under the surface and working inside of you as go through the daily ins and outs.

IT TAKES TIME. GOD TAKES HIS TIME. Don't look to the left, to the back, or to right.

"One stupid little thing makes such a drastic change in your life, not even a BIG one, just a little one." It's the little things that God uses to avoid the big things from becoming death to you.

He shoots with adversity for attention. that faith in things of the world have NO match for the things He can provide you. and that my dear friend(s), is pure relief. pure joy in the little things. STARTING to believe in finding pure joy in the little things enable you to slowly piece things together to later on, find joy NATURALLY in the bigger things. the life that God intended you to live, NOT the life that OTHERS intended you to live. Keep the gangster you running towards the prize, not away from it because you hurt your ankle. THATS WHAT EVERYONE ELSE DOES.

take home: let the little things be your guide to fighting for something better.

be in love with prayer this week. not you, or your school, or your peoples, just prayer. God bless man.