e-thought.

got this e-mail & i think you should join me & let it sink in.

"one of the things that the group said in between songs, was about suffering. and how we mite look at each other's suffering n think, "oh well their situation isnt THAT bad" or "man, my problems r nothing compared to so-n-so's". but everyone's suffering is unique. n that's how God sees it, n reacts to it, whtether we see it or not. God doesn't look at u ebb n think, hmm ebbie's problems r nothin compared to "so&so" (or vice versa). he cares just as much about u n wat u go through, as he does with me, as he does with so&so, as he does with all of us. he doesn't play favorites, bc we're ALL his children, but we're also all unique in his sight. and the band went on to talk about how our suffering is somethin that we can offer bak to the Lord, but we often forget to bc we get so mentally stuck on the "why me" aspect, that we forget that we can use it to praise Him and draw closer. i kno we've talked about this before, but sometimes God has to remind us that we don't need the things we crave n strive for. We think we need love from each other, encouragement, interaction n a sense of belonging. but do we really? maybe the reason y we get so down is bc we forget that we're NOT meant to have all those things, so when we don't have it, we really have no rite to be upset. bc it wasn't really ours to begin with. like cs lewis said, we were meant for another world. so how can we be upset that we don't have the things of this world? how can we be upset that we don't have friends and family that would sacrifice everything for us? how can we be upset that we work harder than those around us in skool or work? is ne of that gona matter when we're in heaven? everything we do in this life is spose to be for the next life, but we get too caught up in this life that we forget wat is to come.

one last random statement that i picked up from the concert last nite, bout worship though. so lately i've been feelin like i jus cann't bring myself to worship, or to jus do my quiet time bc i don't have the energy to physically get myself to move from my bed or to open my bible, or even to get on my knees in prayer. n a lot of times, when i see other ppl SO on fire for God, i feel bad bc i'm so far off. n even in church, all i can think about r the things going on in my life. i wonder if there was ever a time when i worshipped without thinkin bout myself at all. how selfish of me. so this is wat the main guy from 10th avenue north said. "THE POINT OF WORSHIP IS NOT TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF, BUT TO FORGET ABOUT YOURSELF."